Name: A Thousand Little Deaths
Duration: P00H02M56S
Description: My ex boyrfriend flew across the country to see me over thanksgiving break. Thinking this was a grand gesture of love, I wrote this song in anticipation of getting back together. (We didn't).

A Thousand Little Deaths

from Trauma Portfolio by Feral

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My ex boyrfriend flew across the country to see me over thanksgiving break. Thinking this was a grand gesture of love, I wrote this song in anticipation of getting back together. (We didn't).

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I stick my hand out the window whenever I drive now
to feel the speed we've captured with wheels
it always makes me feel free
it always makes me feel like this is living
I want to feel like this is living
I think I'm ready to be forgiving

everyone is quick to tell me how gentle my soul is
but no one ever is careful with it
he was the only one who said "this is not something to be trampled on,"
and I bloomed like that in his sun

He said, "I know you're afraid, so wake me up if you need to."
"If you want it, you know I will give it to you."
I am scared to see you next, when the new year starts to crest
will you see what I have come to see?
Will you still love me?

And you were the witness to how I cry when I finish
and if love is unconditional then why'd I ever care about that business
so if you burn it all down and you ignore the sound, well...

I want to die a thousand little deaths and one big one with you
I want to die a thousand little deaths and one big one with you
I want to die a thousand little deaths and one big one with you

credits

from Trauma Portfolio, released October 20, 2018
Written by Kelsey.
Guitar and Vocals by Kelsey.
Tambourine by Kelsey.
Recorded, mixed, mastered and produced by Ian Pillsbury at The Loud House in Santa Cruz, CA, Summer 2018.

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